Satiation revisited. October 5, 2008

Many times when i feel frustrated, helpless and angry, this blog reminds me of this word Satiation. When can one reach this point of satiation where one is satisfied fully and find happiness in the economics world. We are always chasing for success, fame, material gains almost our whole lives. Be it work, or personal life.. Will we ever be contented? I guess not.

When I got nothing much to do at work, I complained of boredom and not learning anything. When I am given lots of work to do now, I complain everyday too. Ironic. Nothing seems to make me happy. Especially now with this Bank A, systems are crap, processes are eveb more crap. The work which I used to take 1 hour to do, is taking me 3 hours to complete here. I cursed and swear for the first 3 weeks. This has since died down as I began to accept my fate. The same reason that made everyone resigned to fate – NO CHOICE. I think I have become an expert to making negative things become positive. Work is lousy, but colleagues are nice. System is crap, but at least I can use MSN and check my Yahoo mail. Cool…

Used to be very upset that my friends are leaving the bank one by one. Now, think there are only 3 good friends left on 9th floor. But now, i sort of get used to people leaving. I have went through the trend where farewell as a big hoo-ha event, to silent departure. People used to buy donuts and send out long emo emails on their last day. These few weeks i see people sending a short Thank You email to close friends and no more donuts. I think when my turn comes, I won’t be even sending out emails! There might not be any friend left too. It is an experience actually, to see so many resignations in a year in a company. Not many people get to go through this I guess.

And Michelle, pls hang on there! It’s a painful period for everyone, nothing can be worse than now!

I am a diamond lover March 23, 2008

Yesterday went shopping for birthday present with keith. He claimed that he had no idea what I like for birthday present. So I happily said I wanted a diamond ring, with lots of diamond. Haha… Think he must have regretted to ask me that. Went to many jewellery shops like SK, Citigems, Goldheart etc to see… I fell in love with this Goldheart ring, it was love at first sight… As for him, he almost fainted when we saw the price tag… When i put it on, I felt like a princess! Haha… But no choice, it was way way way out of budget. So i decided to continue to shop around today for cheaper version of this. Wish me luck!

It’s my birthday today! March 22, 2008

Hello folks! It’s my birthday today! Wish me happy birthday… Haha… Today is quite a boring day! Nothing much happening at my hse, no presents no cake! Think the only celebration was the one organized by my teammates. It was rather memorable… A cake baked by my 神雕, a strawberry cheese cake. Hee.. was so surprised that he actually baked a cake for me! Heard he stayed up the night with his gf to bake the cake. It tasted nice too. The team shared to buy a Agnes B passport holder. Shimmery red. Nice and sweet. Thanks all! My wish is to be happy forever!

after a week’s break from work. November 14, 2007

Today is the first day back at work after 1 week’s leave. Should have feel recharged, but seems that I am as tired as usual. Cos the thought of all unhappy happenings at work puts me off… Mich said she’s shocked when she saw tt i actually like my job. Seriously… I like my job… but i am complaining about my job, not cos of the things i do, but cos of the kind of recognition and treatment i get from up there. I have put in 200% of effort and time in this job. If u don’t believe, go read the early entries of my blog. You can see the complete difference I treat this current job and the previous one. I look forward to go to work, thinking about the things I have to do today, and how i am gg to clear them all by today… this sounds crazy… but i am serious. That’s why I am very upset that why can’t i just concentrate on doing my job well, and have to care about office politics! Please leave me alone can??!!!

i am a superwoman. October 28, 2007

Went to the 2nd review for my eyes… The nurse congrats me with a look as if I am tested positive for pregnancy. “Congrats! Your eyesight is perfect 6/6 for both eyes now!” Yeah!!! 6/6 vision… The last time might be when I was Primary 3… I shall take best care of my eyes from now onwards… I told myself… I have not quite get used to life without specs.. Sometimes when i wanna watch TV or read newspapers, I would subconsciously wanna grab my glasses before I go to the living room. Haha…

The past 2 weeks has been like hell for me… I worked non-stop… only stop for sleep and meals… basically i work about 12 hrs a day, some days i even had to work alone. Imagine one person do 3 person job. Felt i neglected my family a lot… Mainly cos of my working hrs and all… So decided to bring them out for dinner during weekend. Decided on the Bottle Tree Village restaurant. Been there once a few years ago and thought my parents would like that place a lot cos of its rustic charm. On the way to the dinner, we passed by La Casa, the place i’m going to live in half a yr’s time. Finally I see something tangible… some image some concrete i can tag to the hefty price i pay. 2 years ago, I felt like paying for something that doesn’t exist.. 2 yrs ago, I was looking at a 2m by 2m display model of the condo enclosed in a glass cube, trying to take a peep of the swimming pool, a size smaller than my palm. Now, I am standing inside the condo itself! Can you imagine the kind of feeling??

I am very happy to see my parents enjoy their dinner… This is the 2nd time i brought them out to eat. First was on my dad’s birthday in June. The money not only bought them a nice dinner, but also happiness for everyone. This is the least i can do right now to show that I appreciate their effort to bring me up to become a fine person with a degree and now a job that I like.

The pool is huge… Swimming anyone?

The bottle tree, of course…

before and after October 11, 2007

 Before

 

It’s scary… Even though the nurses explained the whole process before the ops many many times, i still freaked out 1 min before the op. Esp when I stepped into the room that says “OPERATING THEATER 2”. Wow…. First time going into operating theater leh… The day when I was borned, 22nd March 1983, was the first time I came out of operating theater. Can’t really remember how it felt like. Not sure why, Hmph… Anyway, just wanna say this is my FIRST time… So it’s scary…

 Anyway, for more info about the procedure, pls refer to Mich blog. Think she almost described everything I went through. Except that, it’s more daunting than i expected. The sound when they cut the cornea and the laser sound… I tried very very hard to focus on the blinking red light… trying to divert my attention from all the pricking and pressing on my eyes. No pain… just a bit of pressure… The part i hate most, is the part where they apply suction to make the black part of yr eye protrude. That’s where you’ll see darkness for 5-7 seconds… It was expected, cos nurse told me many times. But 5-7 seconds is too short to get scared and panic. So, dun worry. Think most importantly… must really relax, the doctor keep telling me to relax my eyes… The whole thing is really fast… It’a all over in 15 mins… And i can go out of the clinic in 10 mins. Fortunately I was those types who do not tear a lot after Lasik. I saw a girl during my pre-lasik check, she was like almost in crying state when she finish her ops.. quite scared after seeing her like tt.

 Was able to see immediately after i came out. Left eye a bit blur than right eye. I asked the nurse if it’s normal.. cos i scared later left eye nv cure completely.. Nurse says its cos right eye is done earlier than left eye. So right eye will recover vision faster, left eye cornea still swollen. Okie… sounds scary enuff… SWOLLEN… nvm….By the time i reach the taxi stand, i think i have regain 75% of my sight. After a sleep, i felt even better. And today.. 2nd day… I have perfect vision… though eyes are a bit dry at times… So happy about the results!!!  Now… I shall go rest!!!!

After

Wed, 10/10/07 October 10, 2007

I am going for Lasik this afternoon. Time to say goodbye to my specs…

Wish me luck…

Weekend or not? September 9, 2007

Friday night – Went to Wala Wala and have a drink with some friends, knowing that I had to wake up 7am the next day for SOTC class. Damn happening yah? We finished one whole bottle of Martell V.S.O.P Medaillon. It’s the first time I drink Martell. Haha… Used to drink one sip, but found it disgusting. But I found it quite ok this time round, surprisingly. Perhaps I am ‘seasoned’ to the taste of hard liqour. Still can’t believe I actually find Ah Pek liqour taste not bad… Eeek! Anyway, the Martell didn’t have any effect on me. That’s so strange…

Saturday – Forced myself to wake up, was feeling a bit of hangover. Great, I thought. Must be the Martell taking effect after last night. Felt like puking, and yet hungry. The cab driver made the feeling worse by stepping on brakes so frequently. Luckily I made it to class, not too late. The trainer was unbelievably BORING!!! I actually fell asleep in class, resting my head on the table, openly. I couldn’t help it, my head felt like it weighs a tonne! Words like bonds, yield to maturity, derivatives, OTC, plain vanilla all became background noise… Despite being super tired, I still made an effort to watch Korean drama with Keith. He’s so stucked to the TV, while I was dozing off. Went to sleep from 12am to 1pm the next day..

Sunday – Can’t believe I slept for such long hours! Was really so tired that I can’t remember what I say to my friend when he called me at 8am… I guess i was blabbling rubbish all the way. Haha… Did nothing much, except watching TV, read notes, snack… a typical Sunday when Keith is not around – Slacking around. Saw the bottle of Vodka on my table, and the soft drinks in my fridge, and voila! Vodka Pepsi. Care for a drink, anyone?

Stand-by September 6, 2007

Recently I feel as if I am working in the Army. I am always on stand-by to cover any collegue who last min cannot make it to work or whatever reason. By right, I shd be workin 2pm – 11pm. But for the past 2 weeks, I have been working 3-12, 4-1.. And I have to miss my yoga class for 2 weeks cos I need to cover other ppl’s work and can’t leave the office… There are 4 ppl in my team, the 3 of them have fixed hrs, I am the only flexi one. So… I am always so suay… I am so EXPLOITED!!!!!!!!!!!

Morale in my team is super low after one colleague announced that she’s going to leave the company for good. Once again, everyone is now going through the same thoughts again.

“Why are we still here?”

“Why our pay so low?”

“Why the management like that?”

“The systems are crap. We call ourselves Rubbish Banking Systems.”

“Why are we working so hard?”

“The other banks pay so much more…”

“Let’s flip the Recruit this weekend.”

“No choice, I am bonded for next 1 year.”

For the next 6 mth, life will be tough… Having some exams coming up in Oct, Dec and March. Got a feeling I will fail, cos I already forgotten about how to study… With work, it’s even harder… Argh!!! Just feel like complaining today, cos everything just seem to be against me these few weeks… I can’t see the good days anymore..

Help… -_-

Friday night’s out at The Arena September 2, 2007

I regretted.. I regretted telling everyone how good is Pump Room!! Friday when we were there, the queue was damn freaking long! I had nv seen such a long queue for Pump Room.. Disappointed, we wanted to go to MOS. On the way there, this live band music stopped us. It came from The Arena! A substitute for Pump Room! In we went! It was fun… the music was as good as Pump’s. But i still prefer Pump’s atmosphere and crowd.. I happen to see a group of white collar uncles, dancing and entertaining each other. That freaked me out. Luckily, we managed to enjoy ourselves, amoung ourselves. Really look forward for more Friday night parties!

From left: Jiaxuan (Faizal gf), Adrian, Me, Shu Hui (behind me), Stephen and Shen Diao

Shu Hui looks a bit drunk… So does Adrian… His face gets red after one drop of alcohol..

A candid shot which I like a lot.

Settlements and Investigations a.k.a SAI team!! Woohoo~ We’ve got a thorn amoung the roses. We treat him real well… Like one of us, sisters… haha…